It’s not good to admire people. If you are trying to accomplish something, then just go ahead and work at it. Holding up other people as some kind of special case that you can rely on is just a bad idea. They’ll inevitably turn out to be something other than what you thought they were. No person can be an ideal like you’re looking for.
Here’s some basic advice. Look at whoever you depend on and stop. Do not depend on people. That’s the best way to ruin relationships. Be self sufficient and make your own way. Even when you’ve just persisted and are young, don’t give in to that urge to shirk responsibility. It’s just a formula for disaster, even if your sire is theoretically looking out for you.